When I think of the potential of living a long life, my mind always goes to the nursing home my sister works at, in which she has patients that cannot make it out of bed due to having had their second or third stroke. Where their families have not visited in months or years and are basically living off of pain pills and Dr. Pepper. I understand this is a worst-case scenario situation however it scares me to think of this as my potential future.

In my opinion, I would much rather have a shorter lifespan, if I knew I was actually going to be capable of being productive with the time I was given. Three of my grandparents passed away before they were in their 80’s, my dad and aunt both passed away before they hit 60 so going off of genetics, it does not seem like the odds are stacked in my favor for living longer anyways. Unless if somehow, I take after my mom’s mom since she is about to hit 90 and is just know losing her hearing. Her mind is still intact, and she still continues to live independently: making it to art and swimming class still, while playing the piano at her church. If I knew my life would be as full as hers, I would love it. Even though she herself has explained how much she wants to get to Heaven sooner rather than later, the usual things Grannies say when they get to that age lol

All in all, I want to stick around as long as possible while I have the fortitude and the independence to do so. Being almost 30, I have begun feeling my age somewhat and that scares me a little, but I also know it is a fact of life. I am also not scared to die, since I know where I will be spending eternity, so I typically do not stress about not living until I am 100 you know?