What did I NOT want to be when I was five?
Whenever my sister and I would watch Barbie movies, I would always want to be a princess, a ballet dancer, a vet, a dang fairy even lol. My desires were all over the place and never seemed to last longer than my favorite cartoon episodes. Having the innocence and naivety of a child, I swore I could do everything I would ever want.

I remember back when my grandmother started giving my sister and me piano lessons, of which I had it in my mind I would become a professional musician. Being someone who has always had short and stubby fingers, at least in comparison to my sister and other women in my family, it took me a while to realize how difficult that would be for me. This realization is what started bringing me down to the reality that there are limitations for things we may desire.

There was even a point of time I wanted to be a professional basketball player; thanks to the cheap hoop we had in the backyard. I attributed being mediocre at P.I.G, to being one step away from the Championship trophy. Regardless of my short stature, abject clumsiness and crippling asthma at the time lol.

Looking back, I miss the days in which I had never ending trust in myself to accomplish all these lofty goals. It just makes me think my five-year-old self would probably be my worst critic nowadays. I can actually hear the exasperation in my little baby child voice as though she had all the plans in motion, and how much of a disappointment I am lol. Well child, the world looks a heck of a lot different once you take those ‘rainbows and sunshine’ glasses off, so just wait lol.