One of the biggest promises that I have kept not just to myself, but to God is that I would no longer smoke or ingest weed products.
I am not going to lie, I was struggling with addiction to the stuff for many years. It was getting to the point where I would have anxiety if I did not know if we were going to be able to afford another couple of grams, or if our supplier was running behind schedule.
I had not experienced an addiction to that extent before so for the longest time, I was gaslighting myself. Of course its not an addiction! Everyone says you cannot get addicted to weed!
It was just a whole toxic mess for me. I had to reach that point where I was just in a constant state of having anxiety even when I was high. I began praying profusely to have the strength and motivation to kick it to the curb and eventually I did. I am over a year clean on the vapes and over half a year clean on all things CBD.
The cravings have lessened much more than I thought they would. I think I take extra motivation since I see people everyday who cannot leave the house without their vapes and are sneaking in puffs like clockwork. I am glad I am not like that for sure. It just makes me sad that people feel the need to be shackled to something like that.
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